I always wondered what this word meant.  Whenever the card came out in a Soul Coaching Oracle Card Reading, I would just think that based on the image of a scroll with a magnifying glass looking at the text, it meant that there are documents around that you need to check or that you need to take you time with what you’re reading.  However, it wasn’t until I received the card and I had no documents to read that I had to rethink what the card meant.

I guess I was lucky when it happened, because I was actually at a weekend seminar with Denise Linn at the time, and whilst I didn’t ask her myself, another young guy in the seminar did ask what the card meant.  I remember it clearly because she said “it’s about being true to yourself”.  That suddenly meant a whole lot more to me.  Being true to myself, and keeping my word with myself are two things that I’ve always struggled with.  I admit, I am getting better now, but it has taken me awhile to get the hang of it.

I have always hidden who I am, as I’ve always tried to fit in.  As I grew up, I remember loving magic, comics, fantasy and sci-fi – something that no-one else in my family did.  I didn’t have many people around to share my passions with.  I even remember when I started a new school when I was about 14, and tried to engage a guy in the program that I loved to watch, and he made a comment how I was still going about it.  When it came to music, I loved pop.  My family were OK with that, but my friends weren’t, so I didn’t get to really go out with friends to the clubs I liked.  So I’ve hidden that part of me.  I think though, that in some ways that may be connected to the fact that I was hiding being gay… but that’s a whole other story!  Hiding the things that I was passionate about was a real stumbling block for me, but now I am quite happy to listen to the music I love, watch the films I enjoy and  yep, I still love comics and sci-fi!

What are you doing right now, where you aren’t being true to yourself?  I know that as I accept every part of who I am, and do the things that I am passionate about and bring me joy, then I am living life the way I want to.  I am no longer hiding away, but I am being who I am.  What I’ve noticed though, is that as I’ve done this, others around me have done the same.  I can remember recently on Facebook how I wrote about my love of comics and the amount I had.  A friend, who I never thought would read them, let alone own them told me about her collections, and our friendship deepened because of it.

I love the quote from Marianne Williamson, which often starts with ‘Our deepest fear…’  however I want to leave this part with you – “… as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.”